Monday, April 12, 2010

Feeling low tonight

Well today I had a appointment with the Psychiatrist. We talked about my many medications and he prescribed me another one. I'm really feelin a lil tired of taken all these pills! I mean I absolutely HATE swallowing pills! So it is troubling me to have to take all these pills morning and night. I know there are a lot of black folks who refuse Psychotropic medications for one reason or the other and my one reason is the headache of swallowing pills day and night. Having to remember to take all these doses...too much dam responsibility!!! I'm doin it now but I getting tired, exhausted, and depressed about all of it. Just wish I could be a person who did not have these troubles. What do you think? What would you do? I wanna be sane and function in the world... Does anyone even understand my psychobabble? Well this is the real life of a young black educated attractive lady with bipolar II illness. I get highs and lows and both moderately disable me. Like today, I'm sad. No real reason, just down about my life overall and how much I am dissatisfied with my life. But other days I am uppIty too much... You'll see. I have been thinking of whether or not my blog is working for me. On this Blog I diary about ALL my issues. My hair issues and my issue with mental illness and the only relation they have to one another is that they are both facets of my Quest to find self love. But can others relate to this? I'm thinking not. So far anyways. Well I want advise and commentary but I can also offer a lot of advise and commentary. I know SO much about this thing white folk call "mental illness". Do I got the white mans disease? How did I catch it? Too much education? Lol. WOO Honey chile, this is complicated. As is my blog designing skills, background and header. Night now!
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