Its 2:30 am and I wide awake. Can't sleep because I took some Execedrin for a headache earlier. Now the caffeine in it has me wired. So I decided to blog into no mans land about my quest these days. Well, I have a jail love ministry now. Lol. No but I am seeing someone in prison and I can't believe it but I am. And to make it worst, I think he is my soul mate. As you know, I have a Masters in Counseling Psych. Well, he is trained in Mental Health and he runs groups and works with at risk teenagers at the prison. He helps them turn their lives around and hopefully avoid prison. I really think that he is doing great things in jail and I can see him being successful out here working with teen boys. He is amazing but his situation is not ideal. Well he goes before the parole board next week on the 8th and I am nervous. He will learn if he will be coming home in 1year or 3-5 more years. Either way. I enjoy what we share. He was my first childhood love and now we have reacquainted. My family would never condone to such behavior. So I think I'm going to marry him and keep it a secret from my family until he gets out. I just really need to drain him for his seeds so that I can make a baby before 40. Time is ticking and though he's in prison he is doin more than any of the men who are trying to date me out here. We're in the honeymoon phase of our relationship so things are new. Emotions are high and everything. We are enjoying bein pen pals right now. It reminds me of that pure puppy love we all had in our early years. However, it feels good. I like him! Woulda never guessed that I'd even consider a person in jail but because we dated when we were teenagers I feel a special connection with him. Besides that we both talk psychobabble and are trained in Mental Illness. We both want to work with at risk youth and help save lives. He is my flavor plus he reads the DSM IV. How bizarre. I dream of us being a "power couple" and starting a program for at risk youth. See. I don't meet ever this type who can relate to my career. Right now, I am following my heart no matter what my family might say. Its me whose got to live this life of mines. So we will see where my quest will lead me. Will this guy be my destiny? Only time will tell. What's your take on dating a guy in prision?
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Quest for Love-Jujuan
One of my girlfriends thinks I am superficial and I should accept whatever I can get while another says HELL NO. What do you think?
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Quest for love
Well I have not found Mr. Right for me yet. But I hate myself and how I look so much that I don't even really know how I'd allow a man to love me right now. How can someone love me when I hate myself? They can not. So. Guess that means the focus of my Quest must change to self love. I know what to do but I don't know if I am up to doin it. Hell. Its hard work to lose weight. I don't believe I can do it and that makes me not want to try but that also leaves me stuck.
CHILDHOOD CRUSH
So when he was showing me interest. I could not believe that he could actually like me, I wouldn't. So I found a way to push him away. And Him too
OLD MAN
I did the same thing to the old man. Don't know how to allow a man to be nice to me when I'm not worthy of niceness. I'm just fat and sloppy and when they see that they will try to fuk and cut. I automatically feel like they are trying to take advantage of me...make me a cheap date. That's when I got rid of that fool. Save face. Gotta lota figuring out to do. Help
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CHILDHOOD CRUSH
So when he was showing me interest. I could not believe that he could actually like me, I wouldn't. So I found a way to push him away. And Him too
OLD MAN
I did the same thing to the old man. Don't know how to allow a man to be nice to me when I'm not worthy of niceness. I'm just fat and sloppy and when they see that they will try to fuk and cut. I automatically feel like they are trying to take advantage of me...make me a cheap date. That's when I got rid of that fool. Save face. Gotta lota figuring out to do. Help
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