Well I have not found Mr. Right for me yet. But I hate myself and how I look so much that I don't even really know how I'd allow a man to love me right now. How can someone love me when I hate myself? They can not. So. Guess that means the focus of my Quest must change to self love. I know what to do but I don't know if I am up to doin it. Hell. Its hard work to lose weight. I don't believe I can do it and that makes me not want to try but that also leaves me stuck.
CHILDHOOD CRUSH
So when he was showing me interest. I could not believe that he could actually like me, I wouldn't. So I found a way to push him away. And Him too
OLD MAN
I did the same thing to the old man. Don't know how to allow a man to be nice to me when I'm not worthy of niceness. I'm just fat and sloppy and when they see that they will try to fuk and cut. I automatically feel like they are trying to take advantage of me...make me a cheap date. That's when I got rid of that fool. Save face. Gotta lota figuring out to do. Help
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awww!! black sister you are beautiful (really)!!! I agree that your quest for love should be self first...because until you can love yourself, you have no idea about the kind of man you want in your life....you will only attract what you are....find what makes you happy and conquer it...if you feel overweight...then lose it...and find other things about you that you like and build on it...you are beautifully and wonderfully made in Gods image!!
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